We're Chained

I want to be positive. 
I want to be upbeat. 
But really, I'm just hoping everything will finally fall into place.

But it's not.
Not yet, at least. 

If anything, everything is falling apart.


I feel like I am less certain of what I want to do with my life than ever before.

With decision time looming closer, I am just backing myself further and further into a corner. 

I don't want to think about the future.


I just want to sit down and play video games.

I'm feeling pretty trapped right now. 

What kind of job experience do I have?  It's pretty useless, whatever it is.

What do I even want to do with it anyway? 
Where do I even want to go? 
Who do I want by my side?
What am I willing to sacrifice? And to what end?


But somehow, I really am not that worried about it. 
I mean, what good will worrying do?

Everything seems to work out for everyone, in some way, shape, or form.
Life's been good to us so far...


I'm sure we'll all be fine, with whatever it is that we're going to do.

It's Chill

It is far too early in the year for such unpleasant thoughts. It's too early for all-nighters. It's too early for next semester. Or the summer for that matter.

It's just too early.

I'm not ready. Count to ten, a hundred, even six million and I still won't be ready. 

All the good hiding spots have been taken.

Man, first post of the new year and it's such a downer (as per usual).

So here is a music video that I really rather like.